im definitely not satisfied with my results.
only CH is satisfied then eng okok only.
and only ONE A1-chinese *sighs*
Most depressing is my maths.
Not even an A1 in one of the maths.
You knw it's like when you everytime do well in sch then now no A1.
im not asking for A1 for both maths
but even emaths also dont have.
then no distinction for sciences.
Haiis..
Some ppl say my results are good but they dont understand la.
I am eligible for all poly courses only loh.
That's all.

Then actually before this i still dont knw whether to go poly or jc
cos i said to myself before if i get 10 and below (which is impossible),
then i go jc.
but maybe god knws tt even if i got 12, which is my min target,
i will still choose jc.
so i got 13 for R5.
just nice exceed my min target.
so maybe i shd just go poly?
then ytd had a talk with mum and bro just when i was abt to sleep.
sorted out my thinking
and i decided i dont want jc anymore.
i want to go poly.
So ya loh.
anw,
i dont mind going whichever way.
ultimately,
i just want to enter uni.
i guess tt's most ppl's wish la
So as long as i put in as much effort in poly like if i were to go jc,
then i can go uni loh.

So i did more research tday.
On poly and on uni.
like those admission criteria and all.
If not there's not enough time le..

Yup.
Finally decided on it..
i think will either go SP or NP.
But NP is very far
so most likely is SP...

And..
i realise my tear glands is quite active..
i cried on mon
and i cried on tue
even when nobody has scolded me for my results..
then my mum was saying
'' aiyo, ni ku shen me? shang ci jie kao dao zhe me cha ye mei you ku...''
Then i was like
it's different okay.
Everyone has different standards and expectations.
To my sis, she is alr very happy with her results though she got 17 for R4.
That's cos all along, her studies hasnt been very good.
and she's normal acad de.
but to me,
if two of my sciences is b4 and the other A2
and one of my maths is A1,
then at least i would be happy
even if R5 remains at 13.
So that's why..

Haiis..
nvm it's over..
but i still wish i had put in more effort and started revision earlier
rather than really keep myself in the room like one month or 2weeks before exam..

But still,
even if i go poly,
it doesnt mean i can slack
i must work harder so tt i can be the top 10% in order to go uni.
otherwise i might have to go SMU bah...
But i hope will not be too difficult
cos poly got so many ppl so the top 10% will also have a lot of ppl bah..

Alright,
will continue on my research le
byee