It's all ME: June 2011

Thursday, June 23, 2011

BBQ

Hello! Woke up early today and finished up my first FMA past yr paper. Well ytd was another bad night. I thought i actually went to sleep earlier. Switched off laptop at 1230 or smth? Then roughly packed and brush teeth, miscellaneous, set alarm clock etc. Then 12 plus, near to 1 went to sleep after some exercising. But. Can't fall asleep! Damn frustrating man! Yesterday was not thinking about study stuff. Well, at least not really, but mainly was those songs and melody was inside my head! Think i listened too much songs yesterday and too happy luh, then can't fall asleep! And also thought of what i gonna do after mst blablabla, those must wait for quite a while then can do de stuff. Wa, then see wall clock. 2AM. Wah die! Wanted to wake at 9 plus am de loh. Then go change alarm, 10am. Then think of stuff, think and think. Then rmb i forget to switch off power for laptop in the living room. Then go off. Wah dk what time i sleep loh. Seriously.

Woke le then did the FMA, and went to print some past yr paper. the printer really super lousy lah. And i printed twice for the HRM paper. Sian. Waste paper, waste ink, waste time. Then now it was 2PM already?! And im like going out soon, still havent started on my dip plus which i intended to do so this morn. Sighhhhs

Kk i shall OFF my laptop and gonna see what i can do before going out. BYE

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Looking forward to self proclaimed holiday!

Well another post before i sleep. or rather before i rest my mind. Think really too long never update so there's a lot of things to say. Well i still think it's so contradicting. So boring to study but yet there's actually something for me to do, waiting for me to do but i just feel so bored, so "urgh" kind of feeling you know? The feeling of wanting to just put everything behind you and do the things you want freely but yet when you think of the consequences, you will pause and forget about it.

oh well, there's actually a lot of things i want to do after the mst! During my self proclaimed holiday which is after friday! :DDD (hope to do some, but some is already confirmed)

1. Kbox Kbox!!!

Wahhh really looking forward to that since the start of this holiday know! Really really! Andlike everyday im having FOC kbox at home! know why? Everytime when im bored fromstudying i will sing hahaha~ whether it's my choir set piece or other chinese songs.. Like today even more, cos was doing FMA questions so can on music cos no studying ma. Then was like singing every song i know Woooo~ Singing just make my day! But dk whether during the self proclaimed holiday can go sing ma? :DD

2. Buffet!

It's actually a treat from brother! Cos there's one time where they all go eat then my bro treat, but i go school so nvr eat. So he say treat me loh! This is confirmed! Most prob is sat! Will have to call to make reservations:) They everytime like that one. That time my mum and sis dk go where when i go out or i go school then they go ssc or cwp or dk where la, then will go eat those restaurant loh! When im not there! And somemore everytime go eat Ajisen!!! Arghhhh i super long time nvr go eat liao lahhhh Seafood ramen~~~ Super sian lohhhh

3. Swimming

Feel like going swimming too! Feel like slimming down:D But dk have time ma. Weekend will have a lot of people de~

Hmmm actually nothing much to do liaooo~ Basically the most i want to do is going kbox! That one is really really~~ heheeee Alright, till here now! Tmr having class bbq!

Shall upload the pictures next time!

Study madness

And so, basically after that event, i didnt have much of a holiday. was basically just studying. and studied till im a bit depressed. A lot of thoughts are running through my mind during that period when i was studying. Like i keep on wondering, why am i studying so slow and like so inefficient? it's like i start studying earlier than others ( i think) but yet i finish later than them or rather cannot really finish what im supposed to study. And like others who study lesser and later can also get good results. Why am i so slow? and im like waking up earlier to study and study the whole day till night, sometimes ard 1 plus. and wake early the next day again. Especially the period when i was studying FEB, there's really a lot to study, a lot of pages yet sometimes not a lot of things. but mabe it's just cause it cant go into my brain, electronics is not me maybe. i can take one whole day to study a chapter! it's like i expect to finish 2 chapters or what but it's only one chapter and so many things.

Then i was thinking, or is it maybe my study method is wrong? if that's the case then maybe my results do not actually belong to me? then what if i happen to go uni? Poly topics to study is actually not considered a lot compared to jc or uni. Then if i happen to be able to go uni? what if i cannot adapt? how? What if my results in poly are all fake? Then i would die in uni right? Thinking of these just makes me go crazy. Unsure of what im supposed to do next.

And, im also thinking, it's only just a test, MST only. Why am i so uptight about it? so stress, so uptight about the whole thing altogether? it's just a test! i also feel that im actually giving too much stress to myself. Then what will happen to me during exam period? or when i go to year 3? worse right? Even my mum is worried about myself, afraid that i would give myself too much stress, and keep on nagging about it that i feel so annoying. And at night when i want to go sleep after a day of studying, my mind cant seem to rest. Was still thinking about the study stuff. And like ytd i go sleep at 130am i keep on thinking about stuff, and i see the wall clock, 2am. think i fell asleep at 2 plus. what a torture. Recently during this study period, there's also these dreams that i think mean something. Like i will dream of study stuff, or there's hw that i forget to do, and i even dreamt of FEB teacher ytd! so LOL! i think im like running, really fast, dk chased by who and i just run, on the verge of being caught, and after that i saw mark johnson. LOL. Also some other dreams like im running too, or sometimes that i went on a holiday, with my mum and sis. Weird dreams but i think they mean something.

But now im feeling better. Cos now im like studying the subjects like not so boring. i think i still prefer accounting. It's like more to maths stuff. And there's working problems that's not so boring. And today i can even listen to songs and with the air con doing the problems, so shiok. but on the whole i stil think i cant finish what im supposed to.

A Holiday not like a holiday

Oh well currently "break-ing" now.. Super duper long didn't update already and i think there's actually a lot to update.. Hmm first off, this month is a month full of birthdays. Let me list them out..

1. 02062011-- Brother's gf bday. eh no, is wife.

2. 12062011-- Mummy's birthday! <3

3. 19062011-- Wan Chew the slow eater's birthday~

4. 23062011-- Athalieeeeee's Birthday~

5. 26062011-- Jingjia the lifesaver's birthday!

Woo, that's a lot right? And actually this holiday i had some part of holiday lah, went chalet with family on 12th june for 3 days. After booking then realised it's mum's birthday, haha coincidence! And enjoyed quite a bit even though it's not going overseas:) Went swimming and met this girl who's super hyper, and wanted to "challenge" me, my sis and her bf. LOL. She was like super loud there and we are like the group that's the loudest. She keep on saying "3, 2, 1, gogogo, quick!" etc. and she's like got a lot of kind of competition one. 2 versus 2, 4 at one go, one by one and so on. and when you compete with her right, she's actually not really swimming but after 1 or 2 strokes will walk one or two steps then dive in again. then when i swim with her and like faster than her she will like suddenly cut in wor, like i realise why i like being cornered, no space like that. then i stop then let her swim then cont loh. wah seh she really pro. and my sis bf worse. the girl pull his swimming trunks sia! then still lie to say like "i see your underwear!" but in fact, who will wear underwear to swim sia! so LOL!! then when she win she will like dance around one wor, wa really super. Luckily after that my mum ask us go back le, then we can "escape" :DDD

Went cycling too! hmm not say the first time but i think first time riding a 2 wheel one? ahhh so embarassed to say this! Rode a double bike with my sis and her bf :DD wooo like fun only! felt like i really know how to ride sia! but after that wanted to try balancing the normal bike on my own but failed. really failed! is super hard! and the bike like super heavy! dk why i cannot balance sia. i just sit there and paddle but will just go on one side. urgh. but double bike is fun:D heheee

Had bbq also of course! loads of food man! Marinated chicken wings, asparagus and golden mushroom with bacon, hotdog, crabstick, otah, satay, corn, sweet potato, sotong~~ woooo took pictures of the food etc, shall upload when i have the time! :D and finally went home after breakfast at burger king! slept straight after that!

Monday, June 6, 2011

时间

时间是不可能停留的，只有相机才能拍出瞬间的时刻，美丽的回忆。

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Meet up!

And so, after the wedding yesterday, we went to mos burger for dinner with my ahyi and sis and bf and mum.. Slept quite late also cos was watching the variety show. Then woke up at noon today for meetup with ahning and junior "xian cai"! Long time since i last saw zhixian le hahha and she said i grew taller:D Ohya and yesterday i weighed my weight in the hotel toilet hahah was super happy. It was electronic de so more accurate right? wakaka weighed below 50! :D wooohoo:DDD LOL and today we went mos burger again loh, they wanted to go there:( But was fun chatting and catching up on the recent happenings lah. And camwhored just now. Then had dinner at xin wang too. :D

04.06.2011- They walked hand in hand together

HELLOS!

Hahahaha it's been a very happy and great weekend for me, especially it's term break! hehe All projects for the term are over, though there's more to come, currently 2 for now i think? But oh well, it's break time so let's not think about it for the time being and enjoy hahah Well, after the final presentation for the term on tuesday, i've been going out everyday and tomorrow also! Happy happy:D Well, wanted to home sleep on wed, and thurs after school since ive been so tired those few days, but went out with sis and mum. Shopping with them for bro's wedding! hahahh so i got my shoes, and mum got her bag, and 2 more dresses woah power right? she say so she can choose see which one nicer LOL. Went shopping on friday too hahah. and finally Saturday is the day! Slept very late on friday deciding lots of things:D hehe and woke at 7 plus the next day! had to wake even earlier cos i took the same cab with my bro and his gf mah. If not will have to call another cab afterwards le. cos got 5 person.. Then when the ceremony or what's it called start, it was a bit touching especially after hearing what the man (who holds the wedding and give out the certificate of marriage) said. Saw that my mum and bro also had some tears at the rim of their eyes, a bit red.. But i guess its the same for everyone bah.. just that it's really quite touching. Then after that had lunch buffet at the hotel.. woah really very nice food they choose! the cold dishes all these :DDD Then took pictures, chill out abit then cabbed home le. Hahah reached home ard 4 plus or 5? woo and was super tired!

Pictures out!